Hmm..

There are things I want to tell this person, but I just don’t have the heart to.  I don’t know how this will affect her, and I don’t want it to be taken lightly.  She’ll probably never read this.

But as the Spirit compels me to, I’ll just let it out here.

Do not lose hope!  Your life must feel like it’s being flushed down a toilet: spiraling down to the abyss in which there is no way back up due to the hydraulic forces rushing around the inner circumference of the bowl, decreasing in size until all is swept away.

Yes, it does seem like God is taking all the good things in your life away.  You are experiencing tragedy after tragedy, heartbreak after heartbreak, and the one who seems like is orchestrating all this is God, and it confuses you to think that God would do this.

No, that is not true.  Absolutely, and unacceptably, not true.  How dare you think the entity who is purely good and perfect is the one who would cast all this evil into your life?  I must be blatant and harsh in my statements, for our God is not doing what you think He is doing.

Consider Job.  Was it God who took away everything he owned?  Was it the Father who brought physical pain and suffering unto him?  Was it He who made Job’s family leave him to rot? Absolutely not!

When God saw Satan roaming the earth, he allowed Satan to do these things to Job.  Why?  Because God knew Job would be able to handle such iniquities.  He knew Job had the faith not to stray away.  This, in a sense, is how God tested Job.  God does not take away to test you.  He has faith in you, like a father, to allow things to happen because he believes you can handle it.

Wouldn’t you consider all these things that happened in your life as bad?  What is bad?  Can it not be considered evil?  What is evil?  Is it not the lack of good?  What is God?  Isn’t he absolute good?  There is no evil in God, and nothing that comes from God will be evil.

Now, I can explain to you these things, but one thing I can’t explain is why it seems like God is never answering you.  I mean, He is the Supreme, the Maker of all things.  How can I explain what is on His mind?  Just know, He is your true Father.  He is sharing your pain, sharing your heartbreak.  He loves you, and adores you.  He wants to be with you, and hold you in His arms.  He wants only the best for you.  When His children fall away from Him, it breaks His heart so much, just like any father’s heart would.

Satan has done so much damage in your life.   And so far, as I can see, he’s slowly winning.  Doesn’t that scare you?  I just… wish you didn’t lose hope.

So instead, I’ll put hope in for you.  There will be a day when all this will be just painful memories, and your life then will be full of His love, full of blessings.  You will be rewarded in heaven.  Just you wait.

Randomnes:  I wish I could write essays that fast.  Then I wouldn’t QQ so much.

Questions…

I like questions, especially questions that cause you to think very deeply, forcing you to go through a intricate thought process, piecing together information so that your thoughts are not faulty and can be backed up by sound evidence.  Doing things like this are quite fun in my opinion.

There is a belief that whatever we do, we mustn’t question the things God does for us.  Sure, that’s true.  But if you think about it, you only say that you shouldn’t question Him because you can’t find the answer to it.  Well, sometimes the things God does can be explained in the bible.  Most of the time, you have to piece together context in the bible to understand.  But sometimes you can just sit there, read the text, and then spontaneously the answer will come into your heart.  Well it shouldn’t end there, you should indulge deeply on the answer.

For example, during the first night at the ODPC Revival, I sat through a sermon which was presented by Reverend Charlie Dates.  It was based on humbling yourself and lifting other’s needs before yourself.  We must do this as Jesus Christ came to this earth from King to carpenter, from Ruler to servant.  He humbled Himself to be born under the law of man so He could be with us.  From this, I strayed away from the sermon and realized the significance of Jesus resurrecting 3 days after His death.  Now this next part of my thought process might have been a bad thing to do, but it was totally necessary in order for me to further understand His awesome love.  I thought of Jesus as just a normal prophet, a human that was born just like anyone else, but with the gift of prophecy.  I asked myself, is Jesus truly who He says He is?  He claimed in His prayer in the book of John that He was one with God.  And so I thought, how dare any man or woman claim they are one with God?  None of us are perfect, and we will never be perfect as long as we live on this earth.  We cannot be like God.  But this guy, He claims He’s perfect.  Then again, who on earth could die and be resurrected?  With the belief that the impossible is only impossible to us, but not to God, I realized that being resurrected is only possible by God.  Being able to conquer death, being able to defeat sin is only possible by God.  So this guy Jesus must be the One He says He is.  He is one of God.  Therefore, He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  I mean He can’t really lie, can He?  He is the Son of the Father.  And then I took the time to rethink all this, and it hit me pretty hard.  The fact that He would throw away being the most perfect, being the Creator of everything, being the King of all to come down onto the earth He created as a carpenter’s son, as one who fixes for other people, as a servant of the people just to be with us.  Such love!

Sometimes, you can’t really be satisfied with walking with God without asking Him questions along the way.  Living the rest of your life just knowing that He will do good for you and He will love you always and in turn serving Him and His people is not enough.  To be truly be at awe of His glory, sometimes it’s necessary to question how much He loves us.  Sometimes it’s not enough to just know that Jesus died for our sins.  It’s necessary to ask questions that seem somewhat skeptical, but not entirely skeptical.  This is not to say that you must ask questions all the time.  You are at risk of being led astray from God by Satan if you do so.  Satan can take any chance he has to do such things.  It’s important that your faith is strong, so your heart and mind and body and spirit may be protected by God.  But from time to time, questioning things can help your faith to grow stronger.

On another note, every word that starts with the letter H is starting to get capitalized because I keep capitalizing the H in He… heh….

My first post is about…

Last day on earth.

So basically, that doesn’t suck.  Why?  I’ll be going to heaven to meet my Father.  I’ll actually be more excited.  I’d probably commit suicide, and plop straight to hell.

Haha, no.

But my last day on earth.  What would I do?  I would go meet my brothers and sisters.  I would have a crazy discussion about what heaven will be like.  We’ll talk about what we will see.  Will we actually see God?  Or is He even too GREAT to look at then?  We’ll talk about what we will be.  Would we be spirits?  Or will be the same as we are now, but in white robes and have the ability to fly?  We’ll talk about what we would eat there.  Do we even eat?  Do we even need to eat?  If we do, is the food amazing?  I mean it should be right?   We’ll talk about what it will look like.  Will it be on clouds with golden gates and birds flying around?  Or will it even more incredible, astonishing, and mind-blowing?  We’ll talk about the people we will meet and the people we’ll chill with.  I’ma chill with Paul and James man.  And of course mah g-unit playa Jesus Christ himself.  I hate myself now for saying all that useless dribble when I could have just simply said “And of course, I’ll chill with Jesus Christ himself.”

Now let’s go off in a tangent.

Don’t you dislike it when people curse?  Sure, it’s for expression of deep anger and hate, or for other personal reasons, but sometimes I think it’s completely useless.  Why is it necessary to add all these vulgar words to a sentence when you can just keep it simple and understandable?  Do you really need to add that word to a sentence to express yourself?  Absolutely not.  It’s called a dictionary and build your vocabulary with it.  Every time you curse, I cringe.  Especially the girls.  Oh man, when girls curse, it’s like scratching the paint on a car.  WHY?  WHY WOULD YOU DIRTY SUCH BEAUTIFUL MOUTHS GOD CREATED FOR YOU?  WHY?  Please friends, be humble and discipline your tongue as best you can because

^“9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God’s likeness. ¹⁰Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.”

- James 3;9-10

Such a powerful verse.  It convicted me like crazy when I first read it.  How can we praise our awesome Father, yet with the same mouths we curse at each other?  It’s just terrible.

I mean think about it.  If I typed your sentence and censored out the words it could look like this:

“Hey, I ****ing took out the smelly ***, piece of ****, mother ****ing trash.  Smells like ****ing ****.”

Basically it’s “Hey, I ing took out the smelly, piece of, mother ing, trash.  Smells like ing.”

Dumb.  Why can’t it just be “Hey, I just took out the trash.  Smells pretty bad.”

Dude, look how short that sentence was.  Look how simple and understandable it is.  Plus, you don’t look stupid!  Nice!

Ok let’s go back to the last day.

Basically, after a good discussion about heaven, I’ll just go get some Chipotle.  I want to be able to compare earthly Chipotle to Godly Chipotle.  When God hands me that burrito, I’ma tell him how good it is compared to the earth burrito, and then He’ll tell me how he already knew that.  Then I’ll probably burn my money.  I don’t know why.  Just seems like something fun to do?

You know, some people brothers and sisters will probably say that on their last day on earth, they’ll try to save as many people possible…

I totally respect those brothers and sisters.  And I hope they will keep to their word.  Because I definitely don’t have the courage to say I will do that and keep my word.  But maybe in the future I will.

I’ll probably just end my time praising God until I fly!

Yay!